Alex, Elderen, Chris, Sohwa, Jeremy and Angela are the best.

It's pretty late, but I want to make this post so I don't leave out any of the details that occurred on this amazing night.

Tonight my friends took me out to Dolcevita for one final evening before I left them for UVA. We ate some pretty good food in a great Italian setting. The night started out a little rough because we were late for our reservation (getting lost trying to find the restaurant, ending up on the highway) but that in a way was fun in itself haha.

When we finally got to the restaurant, the exterior of the building looked very dark and decrepit. I admit I was a little bit taken back at first, but when we stepped into the building, the whole scenery changed. We caught up with Alex and his "surprise guest", Jeremy and had a great meal. First, we got appetizers and ordered different Italian dishes. I got veal with some pasta which tasted pretty good. We got dessert too! I ordered a cheesecake (which Elderen and Sohwa loved) while the others got a lemon tart and a chocolate cake (which was TOO SWEET)

The things we did after Dolcevita however, was what made this evening so great. I couldn't ask for better friends than Alex Chou, Chris Kim, Elderen Lee, Sohwa Kim, and Angela Kim. After we finished our meals we left and Alex suggested we go to Fair City. After dropping by a McDonalds so Jeremy could pee, we hung out in the parking lot in front of Shoppers. At first, Alex called to tell us he had to drop Elderen off at home because his mom wanted him home and later called agian to tell us he had to drop off Chris. So after 15 minutes (and a trip to the Bank of America), Alex comes with Chris AND Elderen with a box...

This brought me to tears... especially after eating all of it hahaha. After that we took 21 jumping pictures

... with only 1 successful take.

Finally, a security guard asked us to leave because we were laughing so much in the parking lot :)

Yeah, so this evening was the last I'll have with my senior friends before leaving them for UVA. So many emotions are running past me that I can hardly express them all. I'm so grateful to have such great friends of them. This summer was especially hard for me because I felt like I never had any real friends in highschool and that the friends I made were truly temporary or artificial. But after tonight, I felt their love and love them back so much. They are my family and I'm going to really miss them. It's such a bittersweet moment but I really hope they succeed and prosper while I'm gone. Even if I make new friends at UVA, I know they will not be as caring as these people.

Alex, Chris, Elderen, Sohwa, and Angela. I love you guys.

Only a Week Left

With the days starting to wind down, I'm starting to really think about the people who have mattered so much to me these last couple months. It's coming down to the wire before I leave to UVA and there's still so much to do haha. I haven't gotten a laptop yet and I still need to pack. But anyways I should probably update on my life. This last week has reminded me on how lucky I am to have such caring friends.

Alex, Chris, Sohwa, Elderen, Angela, Josh and I went to Kings Dominion on Wednsday with a couple people. We met up at around 9 am to go buy ingrediants in order to make and pack our lunches (because food is so mad expensive at KD). I took Sohwa to Microcenter to buy her a memory card and while we were gone Sohwa's mom made us amazing boxed lunches. We ended up leaving for KD at around 11:10 am. I drove the whole way with Sohwa, Chris, Elderen and Angela in my car. During the ride, Chris, Elderen, and Angela DJed in my car with Chris's Ipod. I think we sang the whole way :). We got to KD at around 12:30 and we had lunch and got in the park at around 1:00. Everything after that has pretty much been a fantastic blur because we did so much and went on so many rides. It was a great day.
We stayed at KD until the park closed and officially left at around 10:30 pm. We decided to go to IHOP back in Fairfax because none of us had any dinner. We got at IHOP at around midnight where we ended up staying until 1:30 am. It was cool because Elderen turned 17 right when we got to IHOP and we got to celebrate his birthday right on the minute.

I got in a lot of trouble coming home at around 1:30 am (when I told my mom I'd be home by 10:00). But that's alright, the day was too good for my mom to spoil.

The times I've had Alex, Chris, Elderen, Sohwa, Angela, and Josh have truly been the best moments that I can recollect in a long time. They've always thought of me and put it out of their way to include me in their plans. Their group has been one that I'm proud to have been a part of and grateful for. I'm really gonna miss them at UVA.

Frusterated but not giving up

This summer has really left me to think on who my friends really are up to this point. I know I've said that so many times in this blog but I can't stop thinking about it. I feel... abandoned or forgotten. The group I usually hung out with in high school, especially junior year, I feel has moved on without me. So many changes have happened and it makes me both depressed and a little angry on how much an impact these changes have made. I feel alone a lot nowadays. I know I have a couple very supportive friends like Andria, Agnes, and Sarah but I also feel as though I'm insignificant in their lives. It's left me thinking about whether it's my fault all of this is happening... and it's scary. I've tried my best to be a nice guy. But I've been accused of using people, being selfish, which I don't deny. I'm sure everyone has used someone in one point in their lives. I sometimes wish I was funnier, had a better personality, but that is something I can't change.

I guess what's leaving me to think about my friends again is the fact that a couple of them went on beach week to Ocean City without saying a word to me about it... It's leaving me to feel like a little kid I guess. The kid who is left out while everyone is playing in the sandbox. Like the awkward kid noone wants to talk to because he's not funny, fast, or interesting... he's just there. That's what I feel like now. Like I'm here and no one acknowledges it. I haven't been able to hang out with Alex, Elderen, Chris, Sohwa, or Angela lately either because they're still in high school... they still got a lot going for them. I sometimes wish I was a year younger, so that I can relate to them more. They've treated me so much better than my old friends. But I guess my age has played a part in it too.

On the upside, I think I jumped over the hill on my wisdom teeth. They're not hurting anymore and only have a slight discomfort. The only thing I'm worried about is how my stitches have gone loose and left my gum kinda of clinging off the side. I don't know whether its normal or not because it doesn't hurt. Food is getting stuck easily in the gap though, so I hope nothing bad is gonna happen...

But anyways, there's only 2.5 weeks of summer left for me before I go on to UVA. I've already talked to a lot of people from Kellogg dorm and I'm really excited to leave. But before I do, I'm making sure that I go to OC for at least a day with Agnes and Co. and then go to KD with the Juniors. I'm definately not going to let something like beach week keep me from living up the rest of summer.